It was in 1996 ... i was playing outside with karthik(my neighbour), suddenly my mother came in search of me, i turned around and saw my mom little worried. She took me home, gave a warm hug n showered alot many kisses n gave me a fresh bath n i dressed up neat n discovered tat my mom prepared "my favourite sweet kheer followed by another fv dish of mine the next day". I felt like summer holidays are not only meant for 'no school', 'no readings' n stuff but also to get favourite dishes from mom n mostly get warm hugs from her very often....
On one of those days my dad comes to me, "can u stay away from us for a week?", this was the question which my father asked. Common now it is getting even more better... i thought i will be sent to my grand ma's place... yeah exactly the same happend... spent more than a week in my grand ma's place, had lots of fun n stuff...
The small brain, which just completed 4th standard dint know that the happiest days are going to be very rare in his life. When i returned home, i saw my parents talking to each others seriously, never saw them doing that ever before...
suddenly my dad calls me.... "Chinna ikkada schools baa levu ra... i guess u already know it better, so i thought it would be better if u go n study in some nearer city/town." I told "veltha nanna ( thinking, it would be some dayscholer basis(up n down) from home to school in a nearer town, which is 11 Km far from home)". Then he says me "No problems raa... anyways we will come to see u every month". I just went, hugged my mom... n started saying no i wont go anywhere and all. My mom convinced me saying pappa is making fun, nothing serious n all. That night can never be forgotten in mylife... many thoughts were running in mind... every second i was awake on bed that night rose to a fresh thought in mind... all of them reminding me that i have to go to hostel... Finally next day morning dad is up with his decission.
But then, i was surprised to see that, my opinion had not any importance in my dad's decission.
Imagine my situation!!! I dint cry after hering this news, rather i spoke nothing for a whole day. My mom being nervous said to my pappa n tried convincing him for not sending me to hostel... :( nothing worked out. I was not able to say anything to them. I was not able to say to them that i love them so much that i just cant miss them. I wasnt in a position to tell them what all i miss just by going to hostel. I couldnt say my mom that i am afraid of
darkness. I was in a dilemma....i didnt know if i was rude to thm and thts the reasosn they r sending me to a school or whatever.... I know maa that i couldnt bear the small n harsh scoldings of my pappa... I wasnt saying anything, coz i know that they are sending me knowing all these..............
Chehar pe aane detha nahi....
Dil hi dil mein hi gabratha hu ma.....
Thuje sab hain patha hain na maaaaa.....
Thuje sab hain patha Mere maaaa.....
Since then, am leading a hostel life.... far away from them... :( :(( :(((
I have been in hostel for more than a decade... I just wasnt able to express my feelings before... thanx to the lyricist of the song......
Movie:Tare Zameen Par
Song: Mere Maa
